Yesterday I reached 36 weeks pregnant. We are at the 1 month countdown!
I’m sat writing this pregnancy update and to be honest my mind is blank. All I can feel right now is the anxiety rushing through me about going into labour and then having a baby.
There’s a couple of reasons for my increased anxiety. First was spending an evening in triage around women in labour. I had to have my lady bits looked at (I won’t go into gross details) and in one afternoon/evening I had 3 different people look down there and poke and prod me. The worst being the male consultant. I mean seriously, could you have been a little bit more gentle?! I felt like he was tearing me apart. Even the midwife was telling me to breath through it. She didn’t seem too impressed with how rough he was being. I really felt like kicking him in the… you know. The experience just reminded me of what’s to come. If this was hurting then I wasn’t going to enjoy labour for the second time was I!
It’s fine Alex, you did it once, you can do it again. I’m open to any drugs though. I’ll try with minimal, but if I ask for more, bloody give it to me.
This all happened on Wednesday and since then I’ve been feeling a little nervous about everything, but I think that’s pretty understandable.
The second reason I’ve been feeling so anxious is because of the amount of people who keep telling me how low my bump is! I’ve known it has dropped for a couple of weeks now, and in comparison to my friend who is due 10 days after me, I am quite low. But everyone holds differently and that doesn’t mean baby boy will be early! But hearing it over and over gets you thinking and every little niggle I feel makes me think he might be on his way.
I’ve also got to the ‘I’m fat’ stage in pregnancy like I did with Lamb. I got to the end and just exploded. Big bump, even bigger bum. I can’t look at myself in the mirror too much because if I did I’d stop leaving the house. I know I can lose the weight, I’ll be straight back to weight watchers, but it’s still not nice to see how much I’ve gained. *Sigh*.
I’ve finally packed my hospital bags. They are in the boot of the car while we are on holiday in Butlins! I’ll go over them again next week and double check as I kind rushed packing them. I’ll also be writing a blog post on what I’ve packed soon.
That’s it for this week. Not much else has happened. Oh, other than braxton hicks kicking again (they calmed down for a couple of weeks). I had a look over my birth plan, and I’ll tell you about this next week.
See you next Sunday when I’ll be full term! Holy moly!
Ax
The last few weeks are so tense aren’t they. I hope the last month goes smoothly for you x
Oh hun, that doctor sounds horrible. I hope your anxiety of it all calms down for you x
I think that in some ways it’s easier the second time because you sort of know what to expect… But then it’s harder because you know what to expect!! Don’t worry about carrying low, Toby was fully engaged for a few weeks before he arrived, much to everyone’s amusement because I was walking like John Wayne! Hugs lovely xxx
I can’t believe how quick this pregnancy has gone! I think it’s totally normal to feel anxious toward the end of the pregnancy, but like you’ve said you did it once and you will just get into it and be focused on your baby. Your not fat, just very pregnant. Enjoy your last few weeks with your bump 🙂 x
I would of had to say something about the consultant being so rough with you thats not on! I felt nervous with all three to its completely normal when the time comes you just go into the zone and get on with it you will be fine! And you don’t look fat at all you look pregnant and lovely bump it is too! xx
Oh honey, it is perfectly normal to be nervous about labour, even if you’ve done it before. Just remember it does end. I got through it by pretending each contraction was the last.
You are always on edge those last few weeks, especially when you’ve done it before and know what’s coming. But not long now until you meet your beautiful baby! You can do it.
wat are you on about fat?! You are pregnant and look amazing – you’re all bump!x
That consultant sounds awful, you poor thing. Totally needed a kick!!! I was really nervous and anxious with my second pregnancy, I think its because we know what is coming, whereas with our first we were in this naive little bubble. I carried low with both my girls and one arrived early and one arrived on time, so I don’t think there is too much in it. I hope you have a lovely time at Butlins, great to have a break before baby arrives x
Awww, I dont think your bump is big at all for 36 weeks. I’m 30 weeks along and im pretty sure mine is about the same size as yours! Absolutely dreading how big Ill be in 10 weeks time. Sounds like you had a bit of a rough week withthe hospital visit, hope all is ok.. Look forward to seeing your next update, enjoy Butlins! Emily
Every woman feels nervous as their due date comes near. I promise you this though, when you do go into labour, you will be so excited about meeting your beautiful baby that you won’t care about anything else. You can totally do this.
I can’t wait to hear the news xx
Ah it’s so normal to feel nervous about labour! I was so scared the second time round. I am still unsure about how i feel this time round. Maybe it will hit me more when I am around 30 odd weeks. You are looking lovely x