While I sit alone wearing My Little Pony pjs, stuffing my face with a Big Tasty, Harry Potter in the background, fan blowing because this room is like a million degrees, I reflect on the weekend I just had.
My very first BritMums Live conference. My very first time at any blogging conference.
All I feel right now is a feeling of relief. Relief it is all over.
Don’t get me wrong, BritMums Live was amazing. Such a great atmosphere. Wonderful bloggers and brands to chat to, extremely informative seminars, and highly emotive keynote speeches. You really are in great company there.
However, as much as I enjoyed BritMums Live, I spent most of the time feeling a little out of my depth. A feeling that overwhelmed me to the verge of panic.
As a teenager I was full of confidence and had an infectious personality; a personality still expected of me. Well, I’m not a teenager anymore, I’m fastly approaching 30 and I can tell.
Becoming a mother has changed me. I have learned to love like I’ve never loved before. I’ve learned to live life selflessly. I’ve learned to appreciate what I have and what’s important in life.
However, becoming a mother has also weakened me. I’m an emotional wreck at the hint of a sad story (I was the weeping blonde at the back of the keynote speeches). I have moments of panic in unfamiliar situations. I freeze when talking to people I’m meeting for the first time.
The thing is, you guys aren’t strangers. Most of who I met at BritMums Live know me, and I know you. So why does my mind go blank when I meet you in person? Why do I panic at the thought of approaching someone to say hello?
What’s happened to me?
Attending BritMums Live was a huge learning curve for me. Sitting in my little blogging bubble in my small semi-detached house in sunny Essex, I had no idea at how enormous the blogging world is. There’s thousands of us. Literally. So why am I important?
I suppose attending BritMums Live helped me realise how much work needs to go into a blog to make it a full-time profession. Something I was naively unaware of.
I often have to pinch myself when I’m comparing my blog to others and remind myself I have a job. I don’t blog full time. Those who do, grow quicker. Obviously.
BritMums Live has taught me so much about growing into a professional blogger. Increasing my social media following. Talking to PRs (something I’m actually doing well with already), and how important good SEO is.
It also taught me how happy I am with the way things are going. I don’t blog everyday, I don’t join in with every linky and I certainly don’t keep my social media up to date. Considering all of this I am really proud of what I’ve achieved so far.
I’m not the most well known blogger by any means, but I do have a circle of amazing blogger friends who regularly read and comment on my blog posts. Blogging is a community and I certainly feel I am part of it. Even if I am hiding behind my Macbook.
I am very proud of my little space online
P.S although I am happy with my blog as it is (slowing growing and expanding), there’s one BIG thing that will change about it soon. Lamb & Bear is expanding but not in the blogging world. Something exciting is happening and by the end of this year you’ll see what that is!