Today I turn 33 weeks pregnant with my second son, and I can finally say “I’m ready”.
With anxiety lingering since the very beginning, for all different reasons, I’ve struggled with the feeling of being ready to have a newborn in our lives.
Don’t get me wrong, that new born is wanted, but it’s taken me this long to feel ready to bring him into the world.
My mind wonders and I constantly think back to the struggles I had with Lamb as a baby. He couldn’t latch so I exclusively expressed, but he fed every 2 hours so I basically lived off half an hour sleep between feeds (once I’d fed him and then expressed his next bottle). He had colic so needed infacol before every feed and some serious winding. He couldn’t crawl so often became very frustrated at being stuck in one place, and by the age of 1 he decided eating and sleep wasn’t for him.
I can’t fault Lamb as a toddler really. I mean, they all have their moments, but overall he’s been a pleasure to raise. Although, the threenager stage has well and truly hit us.
He’s well behaved in public (the majority of the time) and a very smiley, happy boy.
I’m beyond happy to be giving him a little brother, but I’ve spent the whole of my pregnancy worrying about all of the things I struggled with when Lamb was a baby; what if he’s the same as his brother?
With all of that in mind, as I turn 33 weeks, I can finally say I feel ready. I’m ready for the sleepless nights (Lamb gives us those anyway!), I’m ready for the multiple nappy changes, I’m ready for the new challenge ahead.
I’m also scared about our new chapter. I’m scared about PND, I’m scared about feeling lonely, I’m scared about taking care of 2 children alone when hubby works away, but it’s a good scared. If I wasn’t feeling scared then to me that would mean I didn’t care.
I want to prove I can do this. I want to fight the baby blues and feel myself again as quickly as possible (unlike the 16 months it took me with Lamb), I want to enjoy my children. So it’s only normal to worry about all of the above.
Today I turn 33 weeks pregnant and I finally feel ready.
Bring it on!
Ax
Second babies can be completely different so I really hope that you get an easier time of it x
I gave birth to my first daughter at 33+1. I definitely wasn’t ready.
You will smash it mylove! It must be scary as you’ve only just got used to the reality of the first time, but you’ve done great til now and you will continue to do so with the adaption of another little handsome face! x
Hugs Alex. I’m glad you’re feeling ready now. I can honestly say my two boys are so different and I found going from 1-2 much easier than going from 0-1. You will be grand, but just talk to us if you are worried or struggling xx
Yay glad you’re feeling ready, I can’t wait! Though I am still terrified of the sleepless nights and colic and trying not to get PND, but this time round we’ve go our blogger bump buddies to support us, it’s kinda exciting isn’t it! Xx
Yay I’m so excited for you and it’s great that you’re feeling so strong and prepared.
All babies are different so he might just sleep all of the time (god, what is that like? I’d love to know!) but if he doesn’t you’re ready, you’ve been there before, you know how to deal with it.
You should be so proud of yourself and of your little family, eeek not long now before you’ve got another baba to love and care for!
And we’re all here for you as a community, whenever you need us (even the middle of the blooming night!)
X X
Don’t be scared mama. You’ll be fine. You’ve got this xx
I’m glad you feel like you are ready. I think all the way through my pregnancy I didn’t feel ready and it wasn’t a nice feeling. Like a lot of people say no two children are the same, you never know this time around might be completely different. I’m sure you won’t feel alone, the blogging world is massive and you have a lot of people to chat to.x
This is a lovely post honey. And I am so glad that you feel ready. But I can understand all your anxieties. I had the same problems breast feeding Little Miss H and expressed exclusively. It is absolutely exhausting. And you do just feel that you are in a constant cycle of feeding, settling and expressing. But I really hope you won’t feel lonely. You have a huge blogging support network, who are here for you every step of the way. And us bump club blogging buddies need to stick together. Hugs Lucy xxxx