Missing My Baby - Guest Post From My Mummy Spam

My baby is not much of a baby anymore…he still has baby moments where he wants to cuddle and lay in my arms but he is now 19 months old and officially a toddler. Thinking back to a year ago, he was my baby. He depended on me to feed him, entertain him, cuddle him, comfort him, move him from one place to another. He basically he depended on me for everything. Now things are so different. He runs everywhere leading me most of the time, feeds himself and even uses a spoon a fork, happily plays on his own with his toys and doesn’t bat an eyelid when I wave good bye to go to work. Part of me is so proud that my little boy is so happy and independent but recently I have realised how much I miss that little baby.

Some people have commented that it’s me being broody… “ooo you want another baby” and “I bet you’ll be pregnant in a few months” are phrases I hear on a regular basis but that isn’t what it is. I don’t want another baby at the moment and I’m not sure when I will as I love spending all of my time with my Bubba and am soaking up the time we have just the three of us but I do just really miss him being a little baby.

I partly feel like I didn’t appreciate him being a baby enough and I was too excited about him growing up to really enjoy the baby stage. I think that sometimes when you are in that newborn phase it’s so exhausting and sometimes overwhelming that you look to the future for hope and that tends to stop you from really loving every single second which is something I regret. I think I am also feeling like this as a few of the people around me are having newborns and seeing those squishy little cheeks and sleep snuggles really make me miss when Bubba was like that.

So for now, I will push that little sad feeling down and just soak up every second with my toddler who is into everything and showing his own amazing albeit stubborn little personality. In those moments where I want to snuggle with that little baby again I will have to just reminisce on his baby photos….or failing that, pinch one of my friends babys for a squeeze 🙂