When I was pregnant with Bear I prepared myself to express and bottle feed like I did with Lamb. Breastfeeding wasn’t straightforward the first time round and Lamb just couldn’t latch on. After a couple of weeks of trying I got the pump out.
When I look back on my first feeding experience I’m shocked at how naturally breastfeeding came to me. Whether it was by feeding myself or expressing, I wanted him to have my milk and formula feeding didn’t cross my mind (apart from to top him up when I couldn’t keep up with expressing to his demands).
This isn’t because I’m against formula feeding, breastfeeding was just what my brain and heart told me to do.
When Bear was born I remember the midwife asking how I’d be feeding him and me reply was “I’m going to try and breastfeed, but my first son couldn’t latch so I’m not getting my hopes up”. I was already setting myself up for failure.